| BABURU, APOLOGY AND MY NEW LIFE |
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| Written by Masahiro Sugano | |||||||||
| Friday, 15 May 2009 08:55 | |||||||||
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The first Lexus was about to roll out of the production line. Honda was about to introduce this sleek sports car made largely of aluminum. At the Maharaja Club in Tokyo, young Japanese women were dancing their butt off in tiny skirts on the bar counters, waving decorative Japanese fans in their hands. This was the backdrop of my coming to the States. Thanks to this economic growth, it became realistic for a regular Japanese family like mine, where the mother finished only nine years of schooling, to send their son to a U.S. college. The cost became comparable or even lower to that of sending a child to a private college in Japan. Thus I left and landed on the shores of California in 1990. In the same summer, Saddam Hussein invaded Kuwait and the bubble popped, starting the ten years of rather isolated economic stagnation in the island nation I call home. In the summer of 1990, I found myself thousands of miles away from my parents. I was eighteen. I thought it was the best time of my life. But soon I realized there were certain really annoying barriers along the ethnic lines within the American culture, and there was even a clearer barrier between the Americans and the foreigners. To my disappointment, I had to accept that I was not viewed as an individual, but more as a member of a bigger entity like race or nationality, and with the label came huge loads of baggage. I should have known better. Didn’t I watch them burn the motorcycles? My fantasy of hanging out with cool black and white American kids proved to take a much longer time. But I immediately found myself in the middle of another fabulous community, the flock of international students. The international student body was largely made up of Asian kids like myself, which was a little disappointing to be honest. I mean, hanging out with Asian people was not exactly my Japanese idea of being cool. But I got over it quickly and started making friends. I never apologized to Americans after that one conversation with the Mormons, but I began to apologize to Asian international friends as I got to know them well. The history of Japanese imperialism against our neighbors had been a big thorn in my sense of identity throughout my teen years. It still haunts me today. The lack of interest in history amongst my high school friends only added to my frustration. My generation of Japanese kids used to be called “Shin-jin-rui” by the media. It meant “new human species". One of the characteristics of this new species was its utter lack of interest in history and politics, unlike our predecessors from the 60s and 70s. We were also known to be irresponsible, selfish, vain and hopelessly spoiled. So when I made friends from other Asian countries, I just had this pent-up urge to talk about this blood-drenched part of our Asian history. I wanted to hear their anger. I wanted to bridge the gap. I wanted them to know that not all Japanese people were assholes. At least, I was not one. I was not an imperialist jerk and I could prove it; I had a street credit. I once attempted to burn the Japanese flag in my high school senior year. It was merely an attempt because I had no lighter on me that morning. It was the day when Hirohito died. He expired without ever showing any regret in regards to what he did and did not do as the emperor before and during World War II. My communist friend (the only one in the whole school) and I strayed from the path of orderly exit after the all school rally and went to the half-staff flag posted at the gate. The country had been in a somber mood for almost a year after Hirohito fell seriously ill. “Jishuku” became the word of national unity, like 9/11. It meant “voluntary refrain”. Corporations stopped hosting cherry blossom picnics. Many schools postponed trips for their graduating seniors. All this happened due to this unspoken social pressure to display a sense of “Jishuku”, the voluntary refrain. The whole thing was very Japanese and the phenomenon scared the hell out of me. It reminded me of the Japanese population’s mentality, which allowed the ultra-nationalists to run amok before and during WWII. Anyways, I had already been agonized by this “Jishuku’ atmosphere for ten months prior to the imperial departure. So on that morning, my communist friend and I took the flag off the post and left it on the ground. We were very scared during our action that lasted probably less than a minute because there was an office of an ultra-right wing organization just outside our gate. They let their presence be known by posting a crest of chrysanthemum, the Japanese imperial seal, on the window. They were like yakuzas. These organizations were funded solely for the purpose of terrorizing the general population against any leftist causes. I’ve heard of CIA involvement in launching these organizations in post-war Japan in order to deter the rise of a socialist movement. But much of the current funding was apparently coming from domestic ultra-nationalist capitalists. My friend and I were so scared of their presence that we probably could not have lit the flag even if we had a lighter. As soon as the flag hit the ground, we walked away quickly and quietly. It might have been a meek demonstration of civil disobedience but I thought it gave me a little street credit as to what I believed against. I was starting my rampage of apology to Asian international friends. But bathing under the California sun, I realized most of my Asian international student friends did not really care about the history either, just like the “Shin-jin-rui”. I was an odd guy to bring up such a thing. They appreciated my apology but the dudes were more curious to learn how to say “You’re very sexy and I want to go to bed with you" in Japanese. It occurred to me that sleeping with Japanese women meant more to my wonderful Asian male international student friends than overcoming the sense of gap caused by the Japanese imperialism. And to my dismay, they came to the States thinking unanimously that all Japanese women were very pretty. It was the media influence. So I stopped apologizing and I did my best to help them find Japanese girl friends. It was not easy because most of the Japanese girls were busy chasing American white boys or any white boys in that matter. It was college. Everyone was horny regardless of his/her nationality or sense of history. Sex was the only politics that seemed to matter then. I read recently in a newspaper that two of the Big Three automakers might not make it. As they prepare for bankruptcy this spring, I keep remembering the torching and whacking of Japanese products by angry Americans in the 80's. I wonder if this tragic downfall of the American auto industry was predestined by those acts of arrogance. In retrospect, the images echo like a curse. When the global “Baburu” popped hard last year, coincidentally I went through another dramatic change in my life, just like 19 years ago. I got married in Las Vegas on the day Lehman Brothers went belly-up. Nine days later I was blessed with a beautiful child. I thought my summer in California was the best time of my life, but today, thanks to my beautiful wife and baby, I feel even more passionate about my life and my career in filmmaking. I did not choose it this way but these financial crises seem to provide a nice backdrop as I go through these life-altering experiences. I will warn you next time when I make big moves. You should take your money out of the stock market. Masahiro Sugano, Filmmaker
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Here is a biography of Masahiro Sugano, as found on the website of Loyola University, where he is part-time faculty in the School of Communication (www.luc.edu/soc): Sugano is an accomplished director/filmmaker whose work has appeared at the Sundance Film Festival, the Ann Arbor Film Festival, and Asian American Film Festivals. His film, Second Moon, appeared at Chicago's Gene Siskel film center in 2006. Described as having a Tarantino-esque flare, Second Moon is the story of a gentleman named Q, who works as an agent for an organization called "Art of Love." The organization is responsible for facilitating torrid affairs between men and women who desire to leave their husbands. When he is not writing, directing, or teaching, Masahiro enjoys road trips to the Pacific Coast, tiramisu, and the novels of author Osamu Dazai. When asked of his teaching philosophy, Masahiro replied, "No knowledge is absolute."
More information on Masahiro Sugano: STUDIO REVOLT: A collaborative media lab producing motion imagery + performance projects Masahiro has recently been selected as a finalist in the Golden Cow of GstaadFilm an international short film festival in Switzerland: http://www.discovernikkei.org/en/events/2010/03/12/gstaadfilm-featuring-a-film-by-masahiro-sugano/ Masahiro's recent cinematography of dancer Ayako Kato. Watch and rate: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHb4nphuP88 Eye From the Sky, Sugano's website: http://www.eyefromthesky.net/index.html Sugano's film: http://www.secondmoonmovie.com/index.html A TV interview on Chicago Tonight : http://secondmoonmovie.blogspot.com/ Interview: http://www.reelchicago.com/archive.cfm?storyID=1096 Sugano's wife, Anida Yoeu Ali, Poet/Performance Artist: http://www.atomicshogun.com/ "Yarning for Love" a short film: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kbhj-27cLQ
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